I've been facing some challenging issues lately in my life.
Most of it boils down to either a) being worried about something that has not happened; b) being worried about something that has possibly happened; c) being worried about something that may possibly happen; d) stressed over something that I can control; or e) stressed over something that I cannot control.
From the above it can sum up as I, 1. Worry a lot; and 2. Stressed a lot. Possibly for no reason at all!
The matter of uncertainty has emerged in my life time and again. Funnily I still have not grasp the concept of 'do not worry'. At times I can do it, then everything seems fine... for a while, and then somehow I start to worry again. It is a vicious cycle. At least for me.
I take comfort from verses in Matthew 6:
"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes?... Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? ...do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own"
But to err is only human and sadly or fortunately that I am human, so I can have my falls and failures. Hmm.. quite ironic, in some ways since I am so afraid of failures. Maybe it will be something I blog about in another time.
I guess the only way to surpress the unwanted worry is through reassurance(s). So do we go seek reassurance(s) or do we wait for it?
Wouldn't it be easier if everything comes with a manual? For you who don't know by now I have a penchant for manuals. My sister Suemae once said that she hates manuals and if she buys anything with manuals she will let me read it so that I will brief her about it. Yup, my colourful life!
So back to manuals... However, not everything is foolproof though. Then how? Panic station!!! More worrying which then leads to more stress. Do you see the cycle now??!!
I guess the only solution to many life's questions is through trusting God. As a telly addict (those who know me would agree) that I seemed to have found solace in a recent episode of Scrubs, where Bob Kelso said 'Nothing in this world that's worth having comes easy'.
Somehow that really hit home. I guess I will just have to constantly remind myself of Matthew 6 and Bob Kelso.